2017 is the year I moved to NYC, launched Pathport, had an interview in Vogue, appeared on television, got married, met new friends, sold 1,000 guides, worked on my first contract for Chanel, and got accepted at Angel Pad, the #1 incubator in the US. Sounds like a dream, right? Well…2017 was also the year I was the most physically and mentally challenged: the pain in my back (that was really just in my head), the loneliness of being a solo-founder, and many rejections along the way.
But you and I won’t pay too much attention to that second version of my 2017, because it’s not how much you fail or doubt yourself that matters, it’s how fast you manage to come back to your truth – that is what makes you feel happy and motivated enough to keep going everyday. I’ve always been the last person to believe in myself, and to be honest, I don’t even know how I managed to quit my job and take such leap of faith with Pathport. I don’t mean to sound too mystical but the calling for this was just stronger than fear, and it took control.
I felt, and still feel, fearless regarding my choice. But paradoxically I felt, and still feel sometimes the fear of not being enough.
But it’s not what you think that matters, because most of the time, our thoughts don’t serve us at all. Our job is to follow our intuition, and we know it’s right when we feel joyful about it. Thoughts are tricky but feelings don’t lie – in all areas in life. That’s when we attract people in our lives who believe in us, for us.
In her TED Talk that will make you cry (I prefer to warn you), Amy Cuddy suggests that you “Fake it until you believe it” and it makes so much sense to me now. You don’t need to believe in yourself to pursue your dream business, because along the way, if it’s right, other people will do it for you.
As the year is ending I’m grateful for all the people who believed in me, for me: my dear husband Pierre, the love of my life and his family, my sister, my friends, my amazing pathfinders, my first clients (Beth if you read this I’d love to meet you someday), Laurent, Elsa, Benedicte, Manuel, Clara, Guillaume, Pierre P., Alison, Anette, Sarah, Joelle, Alexis, Joseph, Carine et Thomas.
It’s a long road ahead and I’m not sure what things will look like in 2018, but it sure feels good.
I wish you all a happy holiday.
Photography by Camila Gutierrez